This isn't going to be much of a post today. I don't have the brain space to create one of my normal posts. So instead I will remind everyone: take care of yourself. Make time for some self care, to make sure you are mentally and physically healthy.
Being a writer we forget just how much of ourselves we give when we write. We give our time, our mental energy and often our blood, sweat and tears. Because we love writing. And don't get me wrong, I will continue to do so for as long as there are stories in my heart. But not today - this week I need rest.
I need to catch up on reading. Watch some terrible tv and just take care of myself.
When I was a teacher, I put everything I had into being the best for my students. And it swallowed me up. Ipushed harder for better results, for faster correction, I chased excellence. And I burnt out.
I gave so much, without refilling the tank, that one day I just stopped. I couldn't go on. The passion I once had, it had been drained from me. I could no longer remember why I had given up so much sleep, why I had passed on social events or even what I was trying to prove. So now I pay attention to my body. To the signals that I am doing too much. I listen and I obey.
It's been almost two years and I am still not fully over my burn out. So, please don't listen to people who will make you feel guilty for taking a day off. Don't listen to anyone telling you that you'll never meet a deadline, that your book will never be written, or that you are being lazy. They are not going to be there to console you when your passion fades, they are not going to be there when you are too tired to get out of bed (for the third day in a row) and they won't be there to help you pick the pieces of your life back up when you are starting to feel better. They think they have all the advice, but those people aren't going to be there when the poop hits the fan. So don't listen to them, even if it is a voice in your head telling you these things. The thing I learned from my burn out is:
Your wellbeing is worth more than a paycheck or deadline.
Having to postpone a deadline by a day, a week, or even a year doesn't matter in the long run. What will matter is if you push yourself too hard - to the point of breaking - over a date that isn't more important than your health.
Until next time: Be kind to yourselves.